  I bought this book because of a cliche reason. I remember my enemy that become my very best friend by the age of nineteen (as i wrote on that silly poem of her, my own mother), mijn mutter - my mother.This book is about memoaribilia of a mother of fifteen 'GREAT' children.
Some how, this drama-queen thing is genetic. She is the real drama, and i just become her now. May be, this sh*t is the thing i wanted to avoid. But as the time goes by, this gene is mine no matter how I avoid.
I am so sorry Ma,,, but we are so genetic.I'm so sorry that now I got your habit.The nicotin and tar,for the time being is the best friend of mine.I'll stop it, since I don't wanna end up like you.yes, i'LL be the unfinished dream. i'LL go get our dreams. The dreams that once, was yours in your life at my age.then like other genetics, those dreams ARE mine!yes, I'LL GO GET THEM.Why you marry him? Why you marry my father? Just to make the destiny. It is my destiny to get born. And now, it is my duties to get my ending. And I mean it. I don't wanna end up as nothing. I want to be the SOMETHING.i will make the world listen and see THE REAL ME inside. my ideas, my path. And so, i'LL breakin up the rules.I wrote in my own diary:'It is my destiny, to fight and against my destiny'
Since I'm almost a-mental-disorder-girl. Since I'm insane. Everybody said so. Well I took other's opinion that way.
I wanna speak up my mind. I want to move on TO BE that something, to do something.
Please GOD. Please. I believe in YOU.
No more "creepy" voice, no more 'feeling sorry for my self'And, yet. i wiLL always love you Mom. even the world say I am the worst daughter, ever. and U kno what, thanks for givin' me that idiotic gene 
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